For those of you who don't know, I was in a pretty serious car accident yesterday. Here's what happened.
Thursday, July 02, 2009
The Crash
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The Man in the Mirror
I need to clarify the last few posts I've written. Just in case some of you think I'm ready to jump off a bridge.
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Wednesday, July 01, 2009
my carpeted heart
the carpeted hallways feel transient. it's as if someone was planning for hard times and heavy footprints and foolishly thought that the best solution would be that after the trampling, the carpet could just be ripped up and replaced. "I prefer hardwood floors," I say to myself as i walk the hallways, with one hand dragging along the wall. "They can take a beating, but they show character." Carpet is the easy way. Cheap, durable and easily replaceable. People walk over you all day, but it doesn't matter what they leave behind, because you know that it will be replaced. If the plan all along is replacement, then they might as well tread heavily, because it just doesn't matter.
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you can lead a horse to water,
unless it wants to die of thirst.
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Sunday, June 28, 2009
Victory
I have been rocked this week. Brought to tears...humbled...kicked while down...I really needed some encouragement. Besides my friend Ryan leading worship at church today, I saw this video on my pal Tony's blog. I feel better.
J
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Sunday, June 21, 2009
Thursday, June 18, 2009
Terrified
It is 1 a.m. and I am still awake. My mind is racing.
I hate the dark. I hate what it brings to me. Not only sleeplessness, but fear.
Wednesday was a really hard day in my heart. I tried to pass it off as nothing, but as I lay in bed tonight, I realized just how hard it was. Details are private, and really only because I want to spare myself the harsh debates in the comment section that would undoubtedly come if I told you the whole story.
But what really gets to me is that I feel like Satan is laughing. It is almost like I can here the deep giggle. It haunts me sometimes and tonight is one of the worst. I want to turn on the television and drown it out, but I know what the Lord really wants is for me to talk to Him about it. It has been years of these sleepless nights. Years of nights where I try to solve my problems, his problems, their problems....
They never get solved.
When will I learn.
I want to take his giggle and shove it where the sun don't shine...
I want to tell him, I know what I did was right. God is in control. He will work things out for the good. He always does right?
Do I even believe that?
Obviously not with my whole heart or I wouldn't be up writing on this blog.
I would be sound asleep, resting in the peace that passes all understanding.
Darkness....I really do hate it.
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Tuesday, June 16, 2009
London's 2nd Birthday
For London's second birthday, we took him, both sets of parents, and our good friend Jamie to Disneyland. London had a blast. We rode every train in the park, took a stroll down ToonTown and got a hug from Winnie the Pooh. And as you'll see in the video, London got a special present for his birthday from some people who love him very much. Enjoy.
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Monday, June 15, 2009
Question of the Day
A few weeks ago, I asked a question about Cynicism that garnered some amazing responses. Now I've got another for you. No pressure, but your answer just might tell me everything I need to know about you as a person.
What do you carry in your pockets?
-Trav
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